Dr Crane called today. Cancer continues to shrink. Tumors smaller than last scan in March. I said everyone wants me to celebrate, but I don't want to. He said yeah I know, but we all need to celebrate more than we do. No one knows what will happen. I will be in remission until the tumors start to grow and/or show up somewhere else. Dr Crane will open a bottle of wine to me tonight!
We will start hormone therapy at my next visit in a couple of weeks. He is researching another treatment too. We will do labwork in 6-8 wks and scan again in 3 months. We are still on the "attack" mode!
Spoke with my friend Leslie today. She is a survivor too. We've known each other since we lived in Nashville. One of those friends that you can pick up right where you left off. Not many of those kind of friends around. She gets it. She was honest enough to tell me the fatigue will last a while. Hers lasted 9 months. Wow definitely not what I wanted to hear. But at least I know.
So since I wasn't sick until I had chemo and the tumors are all smaller, it stands to reason when I finally recover from the chemo I won't be sick. Really looking forward to that!
If anything speaks to me it is music. On American Idol tonight Lauren sang Martina McBride's "Do it Anyway".
Some of the lyrics go like this:
God is great but sometimes life aint good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yeah I do it anyway, yeah,
You can pour your soul out singin'
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yeah sing it anyway
So, even tho' I don't feel so well right now, even tho' I'm scared this is not over, even tho' I feel alone sometimes, I will celebrate. Do it anyway!
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